My true color.. issue nnman kay che..

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

 

Joanna Paula, your true color is Black!

 

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won’t kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it’s clearly the color for you.

 

 

siningit ko lang yun..

Anyway, che’s mom is still at the hospital, and might stay there probably til tomorrow.. i dont know why i’m this affected, surely not because of what happened to tita..d nman sa la akong pakelam..pro lam mo yun..

Ewan ko ba, bsta.. i cant stand seeing che like this. Been trying to hold back my tears everytime we talk about whatever’s goin on with her life right now.

She’s turning 27 this August.. pero she looks more like 30 when you see her now.. dahil masyadong pnproblema kahit yung mga d naman nya dapat problemahin..

I cant blame her though, kung d nya matiis family nya.. like as if anyone could db? but, not to the extent that you’ll prioritize them more over your own.. She has her own family na.. has 2 kids ..who are more needing her attention than everyone else..

Ano ba naman.. til when do u plan to be everybody’s breadwinner? god!! you’re getting scarcely enough for yourself.. tapos ano?? Im not saying na magdamot ka.. d nman siguro pagdadamot yung matuto kang sumagot ng "hindi" or "wala" everytime they ask for money. E sa kung talagang wala db? Kesa nman ganyan ka.. hilong talilong ka kkhanap ng pera! Ok lang sana kun hundreds e.. jusko.. imagine.. halos every other day they’re obliging you to give them almost 10k??

I dont mean any offense to your mom and family ok? but, i just dont think you’re bein too much generous and too kind would do u any good.

You’ve proven more than enough already. You’ve always been a perfect daughter..sister..friend.. but lemme ask you.. do u think if i ask your sons..sid and anton.. if you’ve been a good mom to them.. will they answer the same? " yeah mommy jojo.. she’s the perfect mom everyone oughta have".. I doubt it. Ngayon pa nga lang prang dkna nageexist sa mga bata e..

Shit! i hate seeing you like this! Please.. you’re not helping yourself kc e.. you’re not helping your family either..

Y’know what? You may not be aware of it, but youre tolerating them. really. Sad, but true. They all have become parasites..because of u..and u hafta give ‘em their lessons before it’s too late.

Wish ko lang.. after all these.. e meron isa sa pamilya mong mahiya humingi ng pangkuryente (8000 monthly?? 4 a/c nyo?), pambayad sa nkasanglang lot, sa lending..etc..etc..

Or baka nman just after 2 days lang pgkauwi ni tita e, me mgtext nanaman.. para sa monthly allowance nila.. na if we’ll sum up e..more or less 30k.

wow! since when have u had that uber high paying job? you’re just givin away that hefty ammount of $?? Come on! We both know? dont we?

Ok lang if you’re still living that millionaire style the way u used to.. but dear..that was 4 years ago!! You’re nothing but like any average individual now.. Cant u make them atleast understand the situation? Your lifesyle then and now?

Lemme ask u.. how on earth did everything turn upside down? Where have all your millions gone? db? in 2 years time e nawala na nang parang bula yang kyamanan nyo ni bert? why did your uber cool car vanished, all of a sudden? came next was your husband’s.. why did u need to sell them all? and if i remember it right.. si sid pa lang ang baby nyo nun.. barely a year old plng..

Baby, sometimes.. you need to accept and realize whats goin on with your life. Why dont u ..first, accept the fact yourself, that you have your own life now.. and that there are some things that need to change. You’re not getting any younger.. pati mga babies mo.. there’s so much ahead of you and your family.. lots more ahead of your sons’.. ahead of us..

You’ve given your all to your mom since the day u’ve gotten out of her.. until now.. for 27 years.. dont u think it’s high time for you to veer away from other people’s problems.. and live your own life instead?

We’re hell like sisters.. and shit i do care and love u.. and just like what i always tell ate tin and ate ichey…. i’ll be willing to take part of whatever you’re feeling right now.. to easen up your load..

Lech. iyoyosi kna nga lang to..